It appears that there  is a rumour that we are giving up the nursery. Its true that we are giving a lot of thought to what will happen in the future because we are both pensioners (how wonderful to have a regular income) and we need to be realistic. Anyone who has or has had cancer tends to evaluate what is important and what they want to do with the rest of their lives and now Philip is over the course of treatment ( there will be more at some stage) we need to make some plans.

Creating the garden has been a full-on project for me and I have no intention of walking away from it for quite some time. I want to see it develop and grow, I want to make changes to make it a better space. On the other hand I know its getting harder to do the physical work (and most of it is physical), I’m slower than I was 10 years ago and I have achy bits. We can’t afford to employ anyone. Its a dilemma. I can’t visualise what I would do all day if I gave up work. Some people have many plans of how to fill their days when they retire but I have none. P would be ok because he always has the boat to work on.

It may be that the decision is made for us if this year is anything to go by because our sales have been very poor. If we don’t get more customers there will be little point in carrying on, it is becoming an expensive hobby. I do have one plan up my sleeve which is still in the early stages so watch this space.